*giggle*

AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE > A gorgeous young redhead goes into the doctor's office and said that her > body hurt wherever she touched it.> "Impossible!" says the doctor. "Show me."> The redhead took her finger, pushed on her left breast and screamed, then > she pushed her elbow and screamed even more. She pushed her knee and screamed; > likewise she pushed her ankle and screamed. Everywhere she touched made her > scream. > The doctor said, "You're not really a redhead, are you?> "Well, no" she said, "I'm actually a blonde."> "I thought so," the doctor said. "Your finger is broken."

Searching

That was the only word that came to mind for me...It's a beautiful Sunday early afternoon. I've already been out shopping and running errands. It 's GORGEOUS outside....I like my cool weather and it's 68* with a nice wind blowing...All I need is the perfect man to share the day with...

MEN* which is why I feel like I am searching...I went out with a internet date Friday night. We have only been talking a little over a week, so for me to meet this soon was rare. He pushed and pushed for this weekend. I don't like to set up a date for an ALL day affair, so if either party isn't feeling *it* they are not stuck...He's a writer for a newspaper near by, originally from Boston, and has a Mass Communications degree. He's divorced with one daughter. Well, he had wonderful manners, very much a gentleman, and we are definitely on a level playing field intellectually, but something was missing on my part. I don't want to sound shallow, but I am more materialistic than he is, from his lifestyle choices. I am tired of dating guys who don't own a house and have a small nest egg/401k put away. I mean it's not like we are 20 anymore. See don't I sound like I need Donald Trump? (not even with all his money---that hair do--talk about a bad hair day, week, LIFE) I just want someone who has more than I do.
(No feedback necessary on this one as we have emailed and I know now it's not going to work)

I do have two other guys that I am talking too...I have feelings for both of them. One is a previous co-worker I'll call G. He's as sweet as can be and would do anything for me. We have a few things in common and get along perfectly. We can argue with out getting mad, if that makes sense. You know when you date someone, it takes awhile to get so comfy that you can say or do just about anything without having to "think" about it. We have that comfy zone. He has been through quite a bit this last year and it's been pretty emotional and challenging at the same time. He wants us to get married and would go any where in the world for me. My concern again is financial and his lack of stability at his age. He doesn't own a home and has child support for two children. He's competent and has a variety of skills. He's thoughtful, sweet and fun to be with...He's one of the most romantic guys I know and have ever dated. He's not one to go all out, but takes the time to think about doing sweet things...He's Christian and has a good heart!

Second, we'll call him J~ . We met on the internet about 4 years ago. We dated for about 8 months a few years ago. We live a good 2 hours apart and it's pain in the ass drive. He did all most all of the driving. He's the one with the THICK southern accent. He has recently ended a relationship. I feel like he's partly on the rebound. He is the type of guy that doesn't like to be alone. That part worries me....As I value my independence and haven't settled with a guy so that I don't feel alone. (Some of my friends and I agree, I'm the old cat lady) I want a partner in life, but key word PARTNER. I don't want a guy I have to light a fire under his ass...as a sense of motivation. I know we all have areas in our life we want to work on , and a partner should fill the void, not have to create the roadmap. Do I sound like a complete B?

MEOW! Hence the blog name~~~~~~~~~

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Why do I expect to just wake up one day happy and totally content?
Yes, I'm the eternal optimist.

Friday!!!!

Well..I am running out of here at 3:00. I am so sleepy, I could crawl into a cold bed and sleep for 4 hours no problem.......I need a kitty cat to snuggle up with...They are awesome like that. (at least my babies were)

Tommy wants me to go to the local piano bar and hear one of nis buddies play some live music tonight. Well, I am supposed to have an internet date this evening. I 'll see how that goes and then figure out if I want to go somewhere else or just go home. I am so wiped out! Every night this week I have had something going on. I have the cable company coming to my house in the morning somthing is going wrong with one of my wires or boxes...my high channels keep giving me little squares.

This weekend starts the New Orleans Jazz and Heritage festival. Bob Dylan is today's headliner....Dave Matthews, Bruce Springsteen, Fats Domino, Keith Urban and just a few of the others that are to be playing! When people ask me the very best time to visit "My City", Jazz fest really is the best time. You have 50-75 musical acts per day, jazz, blues, gospel, rock, cajun, zydeco and alternative. You have dozens and dozens of food vendors from crawfish to alligator to beinets. YOu have to see it to experience it. Visit NOJAZZFEST.COM and see what my city has to offer this weekend and next weekend. Any support people can give to help the city rebuild is so appreciated. The culture and the renissance are worth saving....

My buddy B is upset today cause his current dating friend is wanting "talk" today. So he's nervous. I'll explain that on another entry. It will take time.

50 minutes and I can go home! *YAWN*

This is for all of my dear friends!

"If tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready, In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared, And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized, That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity, And all I've promised you."
Today your life on earth is past, but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last,
And since each day is the same way, There's no longing for the past.
So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart "

Morning

I'm still sleepy! I hit snooze like 10 times this morning....part of it was that I woke up at 3:00 a.m. and got on line for an hour~ brilliant eh?
I'm crazy excited in a super tired kind of way. I have such a crush on someone that I work with. Well, he was one of the first people I saw this morning. = + ) ~ He's the type of guy that gets close to you in your face sort of when he speaks to you...Well when I saw him I laid my hand on his chest********* If he only knew!!!!!!!!!! My infactuation* This has been a crush for two and a half years now.... He's smart, retired airforce, lives in the country and makes me laugh. Plus, he has always offered good advice and seems to have a sensitive side beyond his thick exterior and professional leadership qualities. He's strong, loves kids, and drives a truck. What more can I ask for? Except there is an 18 year age difference between us. The age doesn't bother me because he doesn't look his age....but UNFORTUNATELY he's married and happily from what I can see. I have pretty high standards when it comes to morals...so I doubt I will ever act on it ...but I have promised myself if I ever leave this job, or he does, I am going to let him know about my crush!

On to other topics ...a really SWEET guy that I used to date has broken up with a long time girlfriend..and he's been calling me. We had a lot in common including but not limited to history and music. I really care about him and I am worried about how he is feeling emotionally.
He has the the THICKEST country accent you have ever heard! It find it *heart warming*. Just hearing Jim's voice soothes any woman from the south..... I hope to be there as a supportive friend for him.

I am so excited! When I pulled out of my garage this morning..Momma bird found her baby bird right where I put him. She was nestled on him keeping him warm after all the rain that we had last night.

Baby Olivia and friends

This is Sweet sweet Olivia! This was taken about 4 hours after she was born. Mommy and Daddy are such proud parents! Their daughter doesn't know just yet how lucky she is to have them.

Well, I am just excited that this evening "Mommie H" got out of the house and brought Olivia out with her! One of their first adventures together to visit people other than family members! She was well behaved and just a joy to watch.....I was happy to see both of them...

The only downer was that she and I didn't get much of a chance to "gab" cause another buddy was there with us....He is a good guy, just extremely naive. We both are trying to help him figure things out...Say a prayer...for all of us!

Still no sign of momma bird =( I hope baby birdie is alright...again any advice you wanna offer????

I got the sweetest card from a very dear friend, Linda today. We go back to kindergarten..WOW..."memories in your mind". Yes, she and I have many many memories of growing up and how our lives have changed, evolved and yet still are feeling empty because of our own decisions and the societal pressures and expectations about certain times and age appropriate times in our lives.
In other words >>>> MEN>>>>>

Two of my kids!!!

How adorable can they get? Destiny is on the right and Harmony is on the left....My kids with fur coats!!!

Here I am!

Baby birdie

I am worried about a birdy at my house. Birds like to make a nest on top of the wreath on the front of my house ...well I peaked at it this weekend...Well..yesterday it fell. When I ran home in between work and our schools talent show...the wreath was on the ground, but the nest was still on it pretty secure....the baby bird was in the pine straw on the ground. I picked it up gently and but it back in the nest and re-hung the wreath. I haven't seen momma bird AT ALL since then..Will she come back for him???

Anything I could feed the baby? The eyes aren't open yet. It seemed so fragile in my hands....

New Awlins and friendship

Well...so far so good. I don't think that people have been talking to people yet today. I so hope this works out for everyone...I mean wouldn't you try to help a friend if you slowly saw them creating their own NEGATIVE fate? I feel like it is worth the "danger" of losing a friendship if their quality of life can be improved....and I only say that because I am feeling older and trying some preventively maintenance.

So how many of you out there think that people should settle for less than they want, if they are getting ALOT of what they want? Are they cheating themselves? Are they cheating other people? Overall is it fair???

Music news...Michael McDonald (former Doobie Brothers) is out on tour with Steely Dan this summer and they are coming to Atlanta August 7th! Wahoo! I love both of these musical acts. I had the please of seeing Michael at House of Blues in New Orleans several years ago...and I saw the Doobie Bros at New Orleans Jazz and Heritage festival with Michael. Two of my friends (Tara and Jamie) and I drove to Houston to see Steely Dan several years ago, we all thought it would be our only chance to hear them live. Unfortunately, New Orleans has such a HIGH entertainment tax that most artists would rather play other areas...such as Biloxi Mississippi.
I hope that after Katrina maybe some of these taxes will be cut to help the city get back together again. It really saddens me to see MY city is such disarray...The New Orleans Mayors race was last weekend. Unfortunately , Nagin and Landrieu will have a run off in May. I hope Landrieu gets in, he is the less of two evils.

April 25

Well, I just left our student talent show at school. It can be refreshing to see students show off their talents and see them gradually grow up each year. Tonight was one of the moments where I said to myself OK...I can see why I am teaching.

I'm feeling a bit guilty about trying to help out a firend. I know why I am trying, but not sure they will understand my real concerns...I hope it works out for the best.

April 24, 2006

Hello! It's my first post...and I'm not quite sure what to write..I have quite a bit on my mind, but now sure who will read and how often...So for the sake of privacy...I may change a few names...But most definately appreciate any feedback...